23 August 2007 is the day where i'm force to become a free bird...

Am i happy?
OR
Am i sad?
OR
Am i angry?
OR
Or i all the above i had said?

I really dont know now... Wad i'm feeling now is confused
Wad am i going to do tmr?
I also dont know will it lead me to jail?
I dont know?
Who can comfort me now? I dont know
Really cherish those day's i had with her...
Although i cant saved this relationship anymore...
Cause of our different lifestyle... Does it matter at alll?
I dont know?
Why do u stead with me in the first place?
Can anyone tell me?
Why cant i put down this relationship?
Why cant i with her forever?
Why must all this happen so quickly?
Why must all this happen WHEN I NEEDED U THE MOST
Why i really dont know why....
I really wish to be with u...
But u say that u dont wan to continued anymore....
I really dont know...
I'm in a messed now now...
How long will it take me to recover this damaged...
The damaged is to deep liao....
Even me myself dont know whether can i take it anot...
Will it take me months or year to recover this hurt...
Who can save me?
U....
Or who god?
Just wish to patch back with u really....

Boo!!!

Can see that i'm feeling better liao haha...
Hmmm wad did i done for today leh?
Today after school meet huiqi and the rest at first is xinlong wan take cab go home in the end 8 of us take cab home xinlong, shixiang and jiarong 1 cab, than jolean 1 cab she rich sia haha... Than me,huiqi, fish and jane 1 cab haha... Of coz me and huiqi get down first haha...

Than the both of us went home... Well waiting for huiqi phone call me went to slp haha me turning to pig liao la...
3pm huiqi call me to go her house haha cause she say so... Than reach her house liao the 3c keep on licking me sia i think they miss me alot cause long time never saw them liao haha...

Than me and xinlong at huiqi house play haha.... Hmmm the more i see huiqi and xinlong hor they do look like dj couple haha... Than ask huiqi if u and him is dj couple than me and my stead is wad... Than there was a long pause haha cause cant think 1 lol... Than i say xianyue couple haha not bad right lol...

Roughly like this for today still got alot more de... But today me lazy to blog haha...
Recover liao is like this de haha....
So tmr than contiun to blog haha lol...

Hmmm... Today leh reach home ard 3 like that cause go eat mac with huiqi they all haha...
Went to school with a red nose and my friend now call me red nose deer dammn it.... Like small kid sia haha...

Whole day have been trying very hard not to faint but in the end cant make it and i faint liao... Lucky my friend with me than they walk me to sick bay lor... Thanks bro
Inside the room i felt so hot hot until i took of my cloths and they fan is on also in fact i should feel cold rather than hot...

During that few hour i felt like diying no one by myside the feeling is very terrible jus dont know how to say... Dont know wad happen to me liao i myslef also dont know....

Yesterday sorry to make weimin worry for me sorry leh... Cause she was like keep on calling my house phone and i never pick up than she worry until wan to cry out liao haha... Aiyo dont need worry la... I wont die so fast de i will tell u before i die haha jkjk...
Than first time chat with her until i slp haha... Than she thought i die liao haha silly her but kinnda funny and cute also haha...

Last night slept half way nearly die cause of my asthma... I thought no more liao lor abt 4 years liao...Than astham attack lor than call my friend who stay 12 floor lend me his spray than ju ok lor really dammn heng sia i... If not i think i die at 9.30pm liao.... Hmmm still can remember the time until so clearly haha...

Hmmm dont know wad to blog liao leh... I think i blog until here liao bah
I blog or no blog also the same de lor... Cause no 1 will come and see de haiz...
Anyway never mind... Cher day's coming soon liao
Wan to go back to see my cher really miss her lots and lots and lots...
K la blog until here liao time to eat my horrigble de medicine sob sob....

Ok jus reach home nia... Went to see doctor lor
Sick again haiz... Dont know y this few day's can sick easily maybe going to die liao...
I think like this better lor lol...

After school kian and hua come my house watch "secret" 3 guys watching haha...
Me watch the show dont know how many time liao.... Until can memorised wad they talking haha...
Than at my house play play play and i forgot something... Forgot to take out my socks and while playing i fell and hit my tail-bone... And i'm lucky nothing happen to or else something will happen some will know wad happen to my tail-bone... So heng lor nothing happen if not i now i hospital liao lol...

Than jus now go see doctor and my tail-bone also cause of the fall jus now... Than give me some medicine lor...
Than fake fake ask the doctor for sleeping pills haha... Cant sleep sia this few day's maybe is exam bah... Really driving me crazy liao...

Hmmm who free sia... I wan go watch the secret again haha... Me siao liao...
Muz de-stressed as daryl say =D
Aiya lazy to blog liao go eat dinner eat medicine than ju go orh orh liao if can sleep ju ok lor...

Hmmm... Just reach home... Morning leh went to co and we learn a new song and is okok lor...
After co went to m mart to find huiqi and xinlong and 2 more uncle also haha...
As usual at there chit chat haha... Huiqi say me more and more like old man liao... OMG
Than call jingxuan come down also haha... She saw huiqi and xinlong than she like dont wan go over until i pull her funny sia she....

Than we all at there talk rubbish play erhu she more pro than me sia sob sob....
She can be my cher liao lol...
Than around 3+ huiqi and xinlong go home left me jingxuan and 1 uncle at there talk talk lor...
Than stay 5+ jingxuan go liao... Than here come's the story..

Here the story goes:

uncle: yi zhan ah..
me: ya?
uncle: that girl not bad leh... although she not pretty or wad but at least she very guai...
me: orh than? wad u wan me to do sia... break up with my current stead and stead with her meh lol...
uncle: i know like this very bad... but dont u think she like u..
me: HUH!!! uncle food can anyhow eat word's cant anyhow say sia... dont sabo me leh...
uncle: i'm telling u the truth... uncle wont sabo u de.... u tell uncle when i sabo u..
me: uncle u serious meh??? aiya she wont like me de la... i also not special only good in badminton somemore i got stead liao...

So that's roughly wad i have remember the rest forgot liao cause very long sia...
Than jingxuan moving house liao... Maybe near my house there 510 just now walk with her cause me still at m mart so on the way mah my house 511 ju walk with her lor...
And that's for today haha...
Tomorrow need to study liao....

Hmmm yesterday really enjoy with shirly, luanting, meiqi, jermy and hanlin
Hanlin win liao lor... Play DDR with him yesterday make me sweat sia... Somemore i wear until formal sia and my shoe is slippery de lor haha... Around 10 like that me, shirly, luanting and hanlin walk home from jurong east haha... Very hardworking sia haha...
Reach home ask shirly help me do my friendster the thing and ok liao lor...
After that ju sleep liao haha...

So that's all for today and yesterday and tomorrow need to go back school liao haiz sian sia...
So cya...

O ya forget something....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANLIN HAHA...

Ok since i now so free... I shall blog first or else i really no time liao...
Hmmm jus got back for my english paper 2 & 3... And the mark is flying colours wor if u wan to know ask me personally hor... I wont blog it here de or somebody will say me hao lian haha...
Somemore this few days has been studying really hard... I know it's very hard to believe but i'm really studying real hard for this pass this few weeks although u all never notice lol...

Got another laptop liao haha... So happy buy internet than send u de... Hmmm, but i'm not using to play game but to study liao... When go library haha...

Haiz, sometime's really wish that u would be by myside with me when i'm having stress cause i'm having stress now and u are so busy with ur school work... Never mind lor, aiya wad i talking sia lol... I'm getting tired easily this few days haiz.... Diying soon haha

Aiya need to go rest liao as daryl say hmmm muz listen to senior haha... Thanks daryl for the advice haha...
Jia you ah zhanglang, xiaoqiang, guai daddy and durian daddy....

Durian daddy was given by X1ALPHA is the wan we always wan to snatch my durian bloody hell u dont know how to go buy urself ah haha...

Condition now: Sad cause me NO MORE HANDPHONE LIAO.... Wonder how am i going to survie w/o hp haiz...

Never mind lor still muz get use to it.... One more thing sorry if i flare up easily this fews day my friends k... Cause i facing heavy stress now exam has started... La0p0 sorry if i shouted at u or wad... Cause i'm having stress ok... Muz say before hand haha...

Today so sway my hair kanna caught... By bloody cheen than muz go cut hate it sia....
So i bo bian lor... Listen to him cause i guai kia mah very scare of cher de haha...

Lets talk abt ytd... Ytd finally found tat boy ravan liao the boy who stole slacker hp
Than aft school found him liao than he say he got extra lesson until 2.30pm ok so we all wait for him lor...
Wait until 2.30pm grab he to staircase there than at there ask who stole the hp than they keep push here and there... Knn make all of us so fustrated fuck him man...

Than it took us around 30min than they admit that who stole de hp... Lame shit la cant they jus tell us earlier... Waste our time bloody shit u haha...( Mr. toh boon choke line haha... My cpa teacher....)

Than we all at there say alot of terms out.... And they agree cause they got no choice haha but to agree who ask them wan to steal our friend hp and tat's the price u got to pay...
And one more for all the who is reading my post now... We only scare them and never bash them up thanks haha lol...

Ok la blog until here liao tomorrow still got exam liao... And one more thing i found another white hair liao OMG i'm getting older liao haha....

Ok so log never blog liao... Dont care la...
Hmmmm let's check my condition first now i'm having high fever now and i dont know how i get it aiya dont care la die ju die lor...

Hmmm yesterday wad i done ah... O shit i really forget liao
Haiz cant blog liao feeling very weak now dont know tomorrow got the strength to go to school anot haiz...
Sick sick the zhanglang going to die liao.... R.I.P
Blog until here liao... Bb

Hmmm... My condition now dammn sleepy and tired cause of yesterday work...
Yesterday BIG BIG BIG FUNCTION ORGANIZE BY KOPITIAM haha...
Than me do barman die sia yesterday... So many thing happen bar got problem cause those customer la... Than make me run from 2nd floor to 6 floor than back to 2nd floor all i can say is yesterday i was running about... Than work until 11.30pm 30min more to national day haha... So we all was like outside suntec waiting for the time and shout HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPROE than it was like alot of people looking at us haha... Dammn funny and we are stil wearing our suntec uniform haha... Than lucky the captian good la he also celebrate with "we" youngster.... At there eat play drink and talk rubbish as usual me create a new win name "SUNTEC" ya i know this name is very de funny but all of them like it lor... So i ju name it "SUNTEC" if u all wanna try just tell me....

Than after the celebration me went to m mart to find uncle cheng and we talk alot of things talk about huiqi my stead and lots of thing but most of the topic we talk is about huiqi cause uncle cheng really wish to take huiqi as her gan-nuer... But there's alot of things we need to do lor... Than uncle cheng as usual always buy drink for me to drink hehe.... Sometime's i really dammn pai seh sia... Everytime uncle buy beer treat me... Than as we keep on talking and talking uncle say about his life... Than i say uncle cheng y dont i help u look at ur hand which is the palm than i like dont know wad happen to me... It's like i keep on saying uncle cheng de past and alot... Than in the end uncle say everything that i say jus now is accurate and 100% correct... Uncle cheng also say that i may become "dan ki" if u all dont understand go ask ur parents ur parents should know cause i dont know how to explain... If i really become will i have my usual life or not i dont know...

Forget to thanks weimin cause she chat with me while on my way home... So late liao u still can chat me thanks girl haha...

It's going to be almost 1 week i never met my stead liao...

Is she still angry with me for wad i have done or say...

I just felt that our relationship is drifting further and further is it all my fault?

I really wish that our love for each other was like last time so sweet...

Is it possible for us to be like the past?

I dont know at all...

Laopo i really love u...

Wish we can be like last time...

Ok me jus reach home nia haha... Today neh nothing special lor...
But after school something really happen liao that is 1 of my friend slacker hp was kanna stolen by a sec 1 boy name ravan(omg so young ju learn how to steal thing liao)... Than alot of us was looking for that boy lor... Find him in school cant find than all of us wait for him outside school and he make around 20 to 25 people waited him for alomst 2 hour KNN... Than 1 girl say that he is inside de reflection room... Than eward came out saw we all waiting for ravan than he ju go inside liao.... Than joshua and 1 girl came out and say that eward shoot the matter to Mr cheen than all scram to the mama shop there...

Than me hear liao eward shoot to cheen me also kinda not happy shixiang also lor... So me and shixiang went back inside school to confront eward... Eward only know how to act big nia scram la u... When me and shixian shout at him his apple dont know go until where liao no ball's la eward only know how to act big infront of girls nia...

Than me xiang, joshua and another groupe people all seating at canteen there saw cheen go out think is go find them bah... Than me tell joshua to call huiqi they all go other place first... Than when cheen go find them we all go inside the reflection room find that ravan who stole slacker than 1 big group of us go inside... Saw him liao lor than as usual shixiang start Q first haha... Ask him rubbish la i also dont know than to my surpise billy also inside than he also know wad happen liao he also not happy BUT WE DONT KNOW WAD HAPPEN INSIDE THE REFLECTION ROOM HAHA... Than we all go back canteen again lol...

Look like this case wont close so easily de haha... I think tomorrow they will contiue....
Wow than like this i tomorrow wan go to school to see free show liao haha...
Tomorrow working haha... Lame
Aiya type until hand tired liao go rest already...
Tomorrow than contiue haha...

Will it change our relationship whether i'm a pai kia or guai kia...

Me dont know wor...

Actually today is me and my laopo second month dde dont know she remember anot haiz...

Forget it lor that's all i can say....

Hohoho... Lol me back frome training liao haha...
Tomorrow leh nothing special haha... Like nomral life lor haha..
Wednesday got national day performance school de very lame de lor haha.... At there march in than call those old folks home people come our school say about how poor they are or wad when they where young that time than follow up by a hand ball compeition aiya so lame sia haha...But me confirm wont go de cause IT'S SO FUCKING BOARD DE LOR... 6.30am wake up than as usual 7.30am assembly than the overall program last for only 2 hours and during that 2 hours i can sleep until happy haha...

Than 5pm meeting my suntec crew mate cause we are working that day whaha so happy can together again liao... Me siao liao haha
Than maybe they wan ton at espland than count down lor haha... Cause next day is national day haha... Than thursday leh nothing to do also haha...
Friday no school haha can sleep long long also haha...
Saturday got perofrmance chinese orchestra de haha... Than it think that's all for this week bah haha...
Me very tired liao need to get ready for tomorrow things haha... Cya

Yo jus reach home and now kinda drunk cause jus now go drinking haha... Today leh so boring cause no tuition and no work... So can sleep until very late haha... Than around 9+ huiqi sms me say that she very hungry so ok lor... I around 11+ go find her with chicken rice cause she very hungry haha....

Than i around 12.30pm ju go home liao and go buy my school shoes haha.... Than use comp until 5.20pm ju go bath than meet huiqi go buy super glue CAUSE MY ERHU DE HEAD IS BROKEN SOB SOB... Luckly huiqi is there or else i'm going to cry liao haha... Than she ju go m mart i go erhu lesson... Than meet jingxuan at my house de bus-stop haha.... Than saw laopo with her friend lol...

Than waited for jingxuan ard 20min... When reach cc the cher at there kbkb than we hack care him haha... The shuzhen going to her friend birthday party... Actually me and jingxuan dont wan to stay long de so me and JX tell lie that me, jingxuan and shuzhen going for a birthday party so we around 8 ju go liao haha... Than pei shuzhen buy birthday present lol...

Than me ju go m mart find huiqi and tiger uncle haha... At there drink beer and talk than awhile later another uncle come down than drink again 9.30pm went home with huiqi lor as walking home i walk like sotong sia haha... But in the still make it home haha...
Today really dammn happy sia my best day of my whole life thanks tiger uncle and huiqi haha...
Me mabo liao haha... Sorry if i say anything wrong haha

HILARY MAH I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz... Feeling stress and melancholy( if u dont understand wad does it mean go check the fucking dictionary).... Haiz jus dont know how to start now... It's like me and laopo quarrel on last sunday and i'm still not sure whether is she still angry with me anot.... I'm totally lost now...
I really wish that we would be like last time the moment we stead together the feeling was very hard to explain i jus wan to feel that kind of feeling again... I will be waiting for that day

Tomorrow leh my exam begin liao... And i'm still here using the comp wow so pro the me lol... But the thing is i cant go home after the exam and i also dont know y... All i can say is scold #$@$#&%% yup that's all i can scold lol... Than got tuition kiao sian sia... Also dont know wad to do liao... Cause my usual de tution at sat have change to friday liao and i'm not working on sat cause no work so i will be working on 8 August eve of national day lol... Maybe after work at suntec ton or espland haha... 7 August will be the 2 month with my laopo times fly real fast that's all i can say...

Aiya cant say much liao need to go study haha...Cya