This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

Really miss those days in hongkah =(
Although we do have lots of conflict but also bonding time for us
40 ppl in our class 7 chinese 2 indian and the rest are malay hahax power siol
Still remember at the canteen halfside chinese and the other side are all malay hahax
All so anti anti hahax
But as uu can seen in those picture we are like so united de can hahax chey

Seriously ii really dont noe wad to blog
Everything when ii when to her blog and wad she blog somehow ii felt pain
You noe pain not those kanna wack de pain
Is those pain ii cant say out de feeling, it's dammn hell heart pain
Each and everyday kept looking at her pic [FOR FUCK]
Stupid rite
So wad ii keep missing her when she gt new friends
Free love [Wad the fuck ii talking]
Really wonder did she really forget those love??? [ii think so]
When there's so many guys giving her free love
Wad's more can she ask for rite?? Right
Each and everday hoping to see her maybe ii dont have to fate at all to see her =(
Or should ii say there's no more chance to see her
So wad ii saw her when there's nothing ii could say to her
The most hii and bye
Tat's all only mehx ii really dont noe wad to say if she's infront of me
Or wad should ii say if ii say her holding wif another guy hand
Pretend tat ii saw nothing and walk away????
Maybe tat's wad ii will do haiz
Maybe ii should move and stay wif my aunty not in jurong is the best
Ya great idea
Think blog till here already bahx dont really feel like blogging anymore
The more ii blog the more emo i'm haiz

yizhan really hope to be wif her again
if she's willing to give yizhan anot chance
which is impossible at all
ii really dont noe wad ii wanna do wif my life already
should ii jus let it waste
each & everday
yizhan hoping to see her sms
and
have the chance to patch back wif her
tat's wad ii really hope for
if she really give me another chance
ii will cherish her like nothing
haiz~~

Hohohoho~
Time to blog again last week talk to dan and pour everything out make me very so light now ii mean my heart
Those unhappy things wif her and somemore cant forget her thought dan keep trying to comfort me but still no use
Seriously a true friends is not easy to find me and dan have known each other for almost 5 years from badminton times fly

Last sunday sent joseph back to camp again hahax
Tao eh take care of urself for ur field camp worx hahax
Kinda sad when he book in miss him to much already hahahax
Before we left him andrew anson me at there sayang him BOTAK hair hahax nice to touch siol hahahax XD
Soon it's going to be my turn already hahahx

So much things have happen ever since she left me dont really wish to say also
Maybe it's time to let go totally so wad ii kept on thinking abt the past when there's nothing ii could do right? Right
I'm so gonna start a fresh again
New begining focous on my job tat jojo gave me mus do nicely worx hahax
Mus not dissapoint him hahax

So fast may is ending already and another 4 months ii ju botak already haizzzzz
Sad lahx =(
But mus look on the brighter side NS new friends right? Right
Hahahax ii crazy liao keep on talking to myself lol
Hmmm think blog till here liao mahx
Having headache pain ar!!!

Hohohoho yesterday send joseph back to camp haha
Kaixiang, andrew, ziyi, anson and me haha
all take anson father lorry go there reach white sand liao so many ns boii haha
few months more ju my turn liao sob sob =(

reach there liao all same same sia all botak hahax XD
when joseph wear his cap dont noe which wan is him siol all at there shout shout hahax
funny lahx
than tat fucker cant find his unit haha XD
like a xiao didi finding his friend hahax some more he at there scratch his botak head hahaha
sibei funny lahx hahax
than when we leaving we at there shout tao eh bye bye hahahax
hope he can book out lahx hahax
if cant book out than to bad liao lorx hahahax
like this sibei evil sia sabo him

hmmmm andrew came up wif a funny idea hahax
say wad when ii go ns going to book in or wad
he will take flag wif 21 logo than at shout my name
than give me the flag say wad take the flag and chop the place
meaning is like tat is my terrtiory hahax
gangster siol
yawn think blog till here liao dont noe y this few days fucking sleepy siol
lol
time to take a nap liao

At Boon Lay's 24/7 LAN (:

Ok. Who do you think am I?

Laughs. I bet you wouldn't know, yeah? Tongues-out!

Fine. I can't keep you guys in suspense anymore... I don't really have the abilities to. Haha! So... let's break the suspense!

I'M ZONA! Lol...

Are you like shocked or what? Because if you are, that shows that I still have a bit of 'power' ah? HAHA! Ok lah, don't play already...

Well, we are currently at LAN and there's his friend here too. His friend is a manager of McDonald's, from Jurong Spring's outlet. LOL.

And I'm here at his blog to post, because 1) to di siao him, 2) for fun, 3) the audition patch here is spoiled! Groans! Damn that!

So, that explains why I'm here to blog instead of playing some other internet games. Like, LOL. Do you also need me to explain why I'm still out with him when it's already like 4 in the morning???

Both my parents are not in Singapore, that's why. So, I called Brother up just now and asked him out to ton. At first when I called him after my movie with Edmund, he didn't pick up. And I was like, is he out somewhere having fun without me??? But guess what... HE WAS ACTUALLY IN HIS LALA-LAND SLEEPING! LOL!

P/S: I forgot what he wanted me to do with his blog. So... I shall crap more then! But... I've got my own blog to settle too. OMG, so how???

Ok lah, shall come back here later (if can)! :) Goodnight!

Oh no... it's GOOD MORNING! :D

Kkk time to blog liao if not no one will help me up-date hmmm wad i'm trying to say lol
So much things happen this few days and i'm so fucking stress over it haiz~~~
September 11 is coming so soon so fast going botak already stress ar

Remember she told me tat she will wait for me haiz~~~~
Yizhan going to emo again liao seriously it's been so long liao but ii can still remember so clearly of wad she say sian ar ii wan to go bang the wall hard hard already

Y cant ii jus forget those unhappy or happy moment wif her dammn it lahx
The more ii blog the more emo i'm knn lahx
Wan to cry liao sob sob )=

Kkk dont say all this lame lame things liao if not ii will break down again lol
Hmmm good news is tat i'm not working already cause of something happen so ii will be very free now for the moment whahahaha XD
But going to have job soon cause someone is helping me find job lol
Yawn seriously ii dont even noe wad i'm blogging sian
Aiya go play dota liao lahx

i'm already starting to miss those time wif her
hoping to patch back wif her day by day
haiz ii really dont noe wad to do w/o her in my life
cry ar )=