Hai so long never write blog already or should let tis blog rot away.... Sometime i felt i was like a toy on a shelve, when they need me they just bring me down and play, if they got new toys they just throw me away won' even look at me and they just chuck me at 1 side the feeling is very hard to say... I wonder is it so hard to like a girl sometimes i really felt i should not appear in her life at all now its like the whole thing has gone wrong totally wrong... Sometime i felt very useless not good in tis not good in that i really wonder wad am i really good in except orchestra and badminton but study damn sux... Sometime when i was down or sad or wanted to cry i can't find anyone to lend his/her shoulder some of them think that i very crazy never serious at all that's wad they think but have she see the real me i don't think so she only saw my half side and not full side some of them told me to 4get her but i had try really hard but i just can't do it at all cause my feeling 4 her is very deep already there is no turning back at all... Me yesterday told her already but i don't think i got any chance anymore cause i don't think i have the chance to see her already maybe tis is my last year wif her i will neber noe when i going or should i totally give up on her.... I'm totally break down now she will neber understand the feeling i had for her... All my best fren had go already me wonder wad should i do without their support wadever i do they r aways wif me nw they all have gone only me left here really don't noe wad to do please my frens come back i really miss u all very much w/o u all my life is in a total mess i really feel like crying nw w/o your moral support i can't do alot of things really i miss u all my frens really...... PLEASE COME BACK I CAN'T DON'T HAVE U ALL I NEED YOUR LAUGHTER I REALLY MISS THOSE DAYS WE HAVE TOGETHER WE PLAY TOGETHER, PRACTICE, EAT, LAUGH I REALLY MISS THOSE DAYS...

I REALLY CAN'T DON'T HAVE HER REALLY...

zhang lang is very tired already... wish to go away while sleeping and leave peacefully wif no worry and wish her all the best in wadever she do thats wad zhang lang wish for her...