This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

Really miss those days in hongkah =(
Although we do have lots of conflict but also bonding time for us
40 ppl in our class 7 chinese 2 indian and the rest are malay hahax power siol
Still remember at the canteen halfside chinese and the other side are all malay hahax
All so anti anti hahax
But as uu can seen in those picture we are like so united de can hahax chey

Seriously ii really dont noe wad to blog
Everything when ii when to her blog and wad she blog somehow ii felt pain
You noe pain not those kanna wack de pain
Is those pain ii cant say out de feeling, it's dammn hell heart pain
Each and everyday kept looking at her pic [FOR FUCK]
Stupid rite
So wad ii keep missing her when she gt new friends
Free love [Wad the fuck ii talking]
Really wonder did she really forget those love??? [ii think so]
When there's so many guys giving her free love
Wad's more can she ask for rite?? Right
Each and everday hoping to see her maybe ii dont have to fate at all to see her =(
Or should ii say there's no more chance to see her
So wad ii saw her when there's nothing ii could say to her
The most hii and bye
Tat's all only mehx ii really dont noe wad to say if she's infront of me
Or wad should ii say if ii say her holding wif another guy hand
Pretend tat ii saw nothing and walk away????
Maybe tat's wad ii will do haiz
Maybe ii should move and stay wif my aunty not in jurong is the best
Ya great idea
Think blog till here already bahx dont really feel like blogging anymore
The more ii blog the more emo i'm haiz

yizhan really hope to be wif her again
if she's willing to give yizhan anot chance
which is impossible at all
ii really dont noe wad ii wanna do wif my life already
should ii jus let it waste
each & everday
yizhan hoping to see her sms
and
have the chance to patch back wif her
tat's wad ii really hope for
if she really give me another chance
ii will cherish her like nothing
haiz~~

Hohohoho~
Time to blog again last week talk to dan and pour everything out make me very so light now ii mean my heart
Those unhappy things wif her and somemore cant forget her thought dan keep trying to comfort me but still no use
Seriously a true friends is not easy to find me and dan have known each other for almost 5 years from badminton times fly

Last sunday sent joseph back to camp again hahax
Tao eh take care of urself for ur field camp worx hahax
Kinda sad when he book in miss him to much already hahahax
Before we left him andrew anson me at there sayang him BOTAK hair hahax nice to touch siol hahahax XD
Soon it's going to be my turn already hahahx

So much things have happen ever since she left me dont really wish to say also
Maybe it's time to let go totally so wad ii kept on thinking abt the past when there's nothing ii could do right? Right
I'm so gonna start a fresh again
New begining focous on my job tat jojo gave me mus do nicely worx hahax
Mus not dissapoint him hahax

So fast may is ending already and another 4 months ii ju botak already haizzzzz
Sad lahx =(
But mus look on the brighter side NS new friends right? Right
Hahahax ii crazy liao keep on talking to myself lol
Hmmm think blog till here liao mahx
Having headache pain ar!!!

Hohohoho yesterday send joseph back to camp haha
Kaixiang, andrew, ziyi, anson and me haha
all take anson father lorry go there reach white sand liao so many ns boii haha
few months more ju my turn liao sob sob =(

reach there liao all same same sia all botak hahax XD
when joseph wear his cap dont noe which wan is him siol all at there shout shout hahax
funny lahx
than tat fucker cant find his unit haha XD
like a xiao didi finding his friend hahax some more he at there scratch his botak head hahaha
sibei funny lahx hahax
than when we leaving we at there shout tao eh bye bye hahahax
hope he can book out lahx hahax
if cant book out than to bad liao lorx hahahax
like this sibei evil sia sabo him

hmmmm andrew came up wif a funny idea hahax
say wad when ii go ns going to book in or wad
he will take flag wif 21 logo than at shout my name
than give me the flag say wad take the flag and chop the place
meaning is like tat is my terrtiory hahax
gangster siol
yawn think blog till here liao dont noe y this few days fucking sleepy siol
lol
time to take a nap liao

At Boon Lay's 24/7 LAN (:

Ok. Who do you think am I?

Laughs. I bet you wouldn't know, yeah? Tongues-out!

Fine. I can't keep you guys in suspense anymore... I don't really have the abilities to. Haha! So... let's break the suspense!

I'M ZONA! Lol...

Are you like shocked or what? Because if you are, that shows that I still have a bit of 'power' ah? HAHA! Ok lah, don't play already...

Well, we are currently at LAN and there's his friend here too. His friend is a manager of McDonald's, from Jurong Spring's outlet. LOL.

And I'm here at his blog to post, because 1) to di siao him, 2) for fun, 3) the audition patch here is spoiled! Groans! Damn that!

So, that explains why I'm here to blog instead of playing some other internet games. Like, LOL. Do you also need me to explain why I'm still out with him when it's already like 4 in the morning???

Both my parents are not in Singapore, that's why. So, I called Brother up just now and asked him out to ton. At first when I called him after my movie with Edmund, he didn't pick up. And I was like, is he out somewhere having fun without me??? But guess what... HE WAS ACTUALLY IN HIS LALA-LAND SLEEPING! LOL!

P/S: I forgot what he wanted me to do with his blog. So... I shall crap more then! But... I've got my own blog to settle too. OMG, so how???

Ok lah, shall come back here later (if can)! :) Goodnight!

Oh no... it's GOOD MORNING! :D

Kkk time to blog liao if not no one will help me up-date hmmm wad i'm trying to say lol
So much things happen this few days and i'm so fucking stress over it haiz~~~
September 11 is coming so soon so fast going botak already stress ar

Remember she told me tat she will wait for me haiz~~~~
Yizhan going to emo again liao seriously it's been so long liao but ii can still remember so clearly of wad she say sian ar ii wan to go bang the wall hard hard already

Y cant ii jus forget those unhappy or happy moment wif her dammn it lahx
The more ii blog the more emo i'm knn lahx
Wan to cry liao sob sob )=

Kkk dont say all this lame lame things liao if not ii will break down again lol
Hmmm good news is tat i'm not working already cause of something happen so ii will be very free now for the moment whahahaha XD
But going to have job soon cause someone is helping me find job lol
Yawn seriously ii dont even noe wad i'm blogging sian
Aiya go play dota liao lahx

i'm already starting to miss those time wif her
hoping to patch back wif her day by day
haiz ii really dont noe wad to do w/o her in my life
cry ar )=

Hmmmm back to post cause someone call me to post if not ii dont intend to post at all :P
Mc for 2 days cause ii not feeling well hahax but if uu ask me to stay at home to rest is a big big no so ii went to chimbers wif kian and xiang hahahax

Than hmmmm ii also noe wad to blog liao just blog cause someone ask me to blog lolx
O ya still got one more thing i'm like FINALLY going to NS on september 11 kaifen ur L1R5 is 911 right hahahx wonder did ii own uu anything in my previous life hahahax XD

So i'm going to organize a chalet or wad lorx hahahax so ah beng lahx ah lian lahx guai kia lahx keep urself tat week free horx hahax cause ii also helping me mum to celebrate her birthday also hahahax so better go think wad present to buy hahaha xD

I like sibei kan chiong sia still got 5 more months to go hahax anyway ii really hopping for tat day to come =)
All my brother myside de ii maybe will open another chalet for uu all jus for us only lahx hahax
HUART AR!!!! lol -_-"

My poor middle finger sob sob =*(
Kanna cut cry ar while closing today washing something and ii forget i'm washing a slider and when ii turn it around and bang there goes my middle finger wif a deep deep cut~~~

At first bo feeling lehx than ii see the water how come red red de ar than see my finger ii nearly freak out man hahahx
But soon my whole hand will have cuts and burn and scar hahax tat's the bad advantage of kitchen hahax but pay good can already dont mind all this little thing chey yizhan become more man liao hahax XD

Hmmm should ii say life getting better maybe yes maybe no during my quite time's like now memories start to flash back =(
Sometime ii really dont wanna have memory at all tat's y ii keep working and get to noe more girls hahahx so far my team not bad lahx not alot of buang de hahax my eyes haben rot yet still gt chio bu see whahahahax XD

Think tmr will be at home and rest as every tuesday is my off day clap clap hahahx than work and work and work hahahx
Yawn sibei sian today never sms her and she also never sms me haiz~~~~~~

Saw xiao char bor today at my work place haha shout suckahlipohpoh [dota nick ^^] so loud some more my manager at there so bo bian go kiaobei her hahax after awhile she shout again to say bye hahax she funny lahx XD
Think blog till her liao lahx very tired somemore haben bath yet yawn~~
Sibei sleepy ar

Yawn today work OT ar sian~~~
Good friday = FUCKING FRIDAY
Hahax kitchen like having war hahahx bang here bang there bang till my hand kanna burn by hot OIL 185 degree uu try kanna burn pain siol~~~

Anyway life's soso only cant get to meet her HAIZ~~
Never mind at least ii can get to off on everday tuesday yup so hope can catch a glance of her ii also happy tat means ii only can glance her once a week ar walao eh ii wan to cry liao lahx =*(
K lahx dont cry liao hahax need to rest early tmr working at 3pm fucking sian ar think tat's all liao lahx

So gonna miss her =(

It's the second day since ii last saw her and i'm feeling so funny =(
Even thought we gt message each other but wad she sent me are those short sms haiz make me so emo~
Today lehx second day of work so far so good got use to the place and kitchen already hahax yizhan the future cook hahahax XD

But kinda tired nahx no girl to see sob sob but ii really kinda miss her =(
Aiya dont feel like blogging already need to rest sian tmr need to work BUT NO HUNKI!!! HOW CAN!!!! Like this will die de cry ar~~~

Boring~~~
Jus reach home not long from work...
It's like finally yizhan is working again hahahax hard working worx (clap clap)
Hmmm it's almost everyday stuck at boon lay de lan shop and ii gt to noe a gal hahahx guys dont anyhow think horx ii no more playboii or hongster already i'm 18 liao know how to think hahax

At first dont really have any feeling for her de lehx but it's like feeling suddenly like tat ju come liao.... Haix so wad tat ii like her but aiya dont noe how to say lehx i'm working now and dont really have the chance to meet her or wad so kinda gt a funny feeling when ii cant see her =(

Sunday was my last day at lan shop and when ii saw her dont noe y words cant come out of my mouth next time cant say ii wan to jio uu cause ii sure will very paiseh when say to her de hahahx
When she say hii to me ii dont dare to look at her sia than say wad ii thinking of things actully i'm really thinking of things like how to ask her for stead or wad lahx aiya dont noe liao lahx cry!!!!!

Erm than jus noe something tat is someone is also trying to jio her ii like totally wanna give up already all ii can say is tat is my weakenss ii will like jus o ok lorx uu wan jio ar uu go ahead lorx haiz ii'm such a fucking noob as dont noe y or should ii say ii dont have enought confidence to jio her =(

O my tian ar please come and guide me lehx anyway tmr is my off day whahahax siok ar work one day rest the next day hahahx XD
So guys please jio me out to chill hahax if she ask me out to chill ii sure happy like siao already hahahx dont say liao later when sleeping also will dream of it hahahx

Aiya dont blog liao time for DOTA!!!!!
I'm getting better than last time already horx nabei ar!!!
Dont call me NOOB AGAIN ii sure wack uu de hahahx XD

Yawn so long never blog already...
It's been a long time since ii broke up wif her already but ii jus cant put it down...
Lots of my friend have been trying to tell me to move on...
Haiz ii really dont noe wad to blog...
I got alot of things to say out in the blog but ii jus dont feel like typing out maybe i'm plain lazy...
Think tat's all bahx dont really feel like blogging already...
Please god help me heal my heart quicky ii really cant take this kind of torture anymore it's driving me crazy

Yawn another day jus went pass~~
BORING!!!!
In another 2 more days and i'm offically 18 *clap clap* and PRESENTS :P
Whahahahahaha~~

Sian ar 18 liao lahx tio case ju fly to QRP already no more boys home hahax
Time to relax liao chey
I all the while also very relax de hahax XD
Jus pray tat those ppl dont come and "find tea" wif me can already hahahx

Have been trying real hard to get her back my side my there's this problem which seem's important to me really impossible to me =(
But for her sake ii will go to church and be HOLY
Guys did uu see this word HOLY
If ii can have her back by believe in god ii will do so
I will do anything jus to have her back
In the name of jesus christ
AMEN *clap clap*

Life seem so dull without her in my life wad can ii do???

Haiz ii really dont noe lahx anyway dont really feel like blogging think jus post some picture bahx

erm where's dan face??? >.<serious liao lols

uu mus be responsible after fucking me XD (got ur baby)

new "stance" for pool -_-"stupid face XD

There's more pictures and video but no so soon mus wait lols

YAWN!!!!
Another boring day woke up at 2+ eat my so call breakfast wif plain bread dip wif kopi LOL...
Than ju went to cousine house borrow printer to print my stupid dammn asshole NS letter tamade so dammn hell mafan sia...
Than ju ard 6+ left his house went jp find gang hahax see them play wanjan
Than go smoke talk talk lorx
Than ju HSH liao lols
Aiya also dont noe wad to blog this few days lehx
Haix 14feb how!!!!!!!
Should ii look for a shemale hahahahahahahx CLASSIC
Tomorrow is friday 13 hmmmm does anyone believe tat???
Anyway tomorrow maybe going to eunice b'day party sian lahx how to go east coast park dont tell me uu wan me to bring the road map ar drive half way stop than see mehx BANG WALL hahax
Can anyone who is very hao xin de lead me the way hahax
No wonder xiao black say ii cant be dispatch now ii noe y liao hahax
In morning ii dont remember road de at night than is my time hahax
K lahx think till here liao need to look for way to go there hahax

Wondering is she feeling happy or same as me feeling no mood but dont think she will feel moody at all maybe dammn happy bahx...
But hope she's fine bahx =)
Think tat's all for today dont feel like blogging lolx

Hmmm never blog for the past 2 days hahax...
Sat went night cycling to west coast wif weiming and henry dammn noisy sia him hahax but the both of them cycle and me roller-blade to west coast tired sia reach here leg turn jelly liao hahax and took alot of pictures so now waiting for weiming to send me hahax....

Reach home around 8am bahx than slp till 3pm like tat went to grandma house for dinner...
And my real father came to ask me to go back hongkong to help him in some business cry lahx ii dont even noe anything even ii wan to go back also cant cause NS come liao TAMADE....

14 feb coming liao going out wif weiming and gang liao sure dammn fuuny de hahax got me this joker and dan my partner sure dammn helll lots of fun hahax pictures will habe de hahax feeling better this few days thanks to weiming and xiao black accidently saw him at my grandma hse there than chit-chat for awhile hahax

Have been thinking should ii go back to badminton and bring back my skills since ii broke up wif her already no more stress or wad but wad i'm scare is tat my so call brother may back-stab me cause he told me that he still like her haiz ii dont noe nahx all ii noe is tat look on the bright side ju can liao take this as a dream =)

O ya eunice birthday is this coming friday dont noe can make it anot aiyo cry lahx =(
Hmmm think also nothing to blog liao lahx now abit drunk liao friend's at my hse drinking hahax

CHEERS ^^

Hmmm yizhan is so hardworking this few days LOLS....
Got time to blog blog blog liao lols...
Somehow have been trying very hard to forget her by going out everyday but nope cause those places ii went is the place ii went with her cry cry =(

Even ii stay at home also still remember looking at her sleeping lols... Come to think of it y people do regret when they lost someone is tat human natural maybe yes maybe no cause ii myself also dont noe tmr is sat and is her tuition day should ii go to hp shop yawn ii really dont noe than the day after tat is sunday should ii go blcc ii also dont noe HAIZ~~~~~~

Tian ar save me from this kind of toture aku tade tahan =(
Jus pray to god that this kind of feeling will gone soon AMEN LOLS
Hope she's enjoying her new life w/o me bahx god bless me amen

Omg wad's happening to me amen here and there tamade hahax

Thanks bro for trying to comfort me but dont worry ii will do wad i'm will do de...
Maybe it's time to be a good boy liao no more fooling around already 18 liao cry cry so old already =(
So ya dont really noe wad to blog also went to 466 meet jos than went boon lay market than to anson hse see them gamble zzzz
Keep thinking about the times we had together yawn
How can ii be a hongster when ii cant even noe wad she's thinking about looks like my title hongster need to take off and give to someone else already...

Kinda regret about our 1 year of relationship last year dont really cherish her.
During her last year birthday ii never bother to celebrate wit her cause of some misunderstanding in fact last year happen alot of things which ii dont really wish to bring it up and than this year hope can celebrate her birthday but seems like only can celebrate jus like friends maybe weiheng is right uu never cherish her than now wan to stead so wad for ii regret now when my token are all use up cry cry...

So dont say so much liao lahx let the heaven decide wif my fate already going MIA again may god bless me and her O's lvl tis year and and and i still love you

Awww so sad think there will be no valentine day for me this year liao hahax
Never mind there's this saying new things will come when the old things are gone hahax
She jus told me tat we are done
OK lorx think now can tell uu wad's on my mind already
Ever since school re-open uu dont bother to care about me or wad already
But i'm at fault too cause ii never care about uu too so we are even LOL
And ii cant feel the love from uu already LOL
During our so call 1 year relationship we keep on wanting to break cause of this and tat yawn so classic hahax...
Reason are easy cause erm ii kinda forget also hahax never mind
Hmmm come to think of it is it good tat we break off to other guys ya keep on noding their head hahax cause the guy who like uu may seem happy hahax CLASSIC
So ya today is the day when we end our so call love story *cry cry*


p.s. bebe get well soon so tat we can play dota hahax dont do to much yoga liao lahx hahax do until go hosiptal hahax ^^

dont noe y my tears start to roll down when i'm on the phone wif charmaine

maybe she's the wan who understand wad i'm going through

haix dont noe wad to say anymore maybe tat's the end bahx

maybe ii still have feeling for uu bahx

haix past is past already but hope uu will give me a chance to keep my promise to uu

god bless me